Thursday 17 July 2014

Asking for forgiveness

I asked for forgiveness 
my ten week old 
fourth potential child 
not to be

For not wanting it
for rejecting it 
for being in such pain
not to be

If you had come into 
our lives
I know I would have 
loved you and supported you

For love prevails - always

Nonetheless 

I ask you to forgive me
for those difficult feelings
at the beginning of your creation

I do not know 
why you were
not to be
not to grow fully

I do not know
why
what 
when

But I do know that
I get answers
when I ask 
the Universe responds

What is your name 
I asked 
and the answer came
clear and loud

Bela 

Time
Within
at the sea's shore

Your name couldn't be more apt
more meaningful
more true

I embrace you

Bela 

and I will forever
be full with your gift

Thank you.