Tuesday 14 October 2014

Evolution: Water and Fire






mothership
sailing the calm sea
flat and harbouring



other mother



The river is frozen
fires are lit
the cracks appear

other women


corals ablaze
encasing the white
streets are on fire

other mother





flying fish
disappearing into 
fertile landscapes


other women



cracking open
revealing pattern
and structure


other mother




my mother
other women
other me



fires ablaze




Thursday 17 July 2014

Asking for forgiveness

I asked for forgiveness 
my ten week old 
fourth potential child 
not to be

For not wanting it
for rejecting it 
for being in such pain
not to be

If you had come into 
our lives
I know I would have 
loved you and supported you

For love prevails - always

Nonetheless 

I ask you to forgive me
for those difficult feelings
at the beginning of your creation

I do not know 
why you were
not to be
not to grow fully

I do not know
why
what 
when

But I do know that
I get answers
when I ask 
the Universe responds

What is your name 
I asked 
and the answer came
clear and loud

Bela 

Time
Within
at the sea's shore

Your name couldn't be more apt
more meaningful
more true

I embrace you

Bela 

and I will forever
be full with your gift

Thank you. 






Tuesday 17 June 2014

Still Life

It is in discovering
still life 
that I am 

finding that place
where the tears
dissolve 

the necessity 
for grieving
for letting the heart hurt

the spaces in between
the shapes 
that tell a story

colours fresh and strong
transformation from one to the other
mother I want to love you

just love you
no more sadness
of lost opportunities 

it is in discovering
still life
that I want to live

in love
for love
with love




Thursday 17 April 2014

Pacing myself

There is much 
that is moving
that is happening

A year gone
my mother's passing
the need of separation

the boy holding onto
mama
the breast 

one daughter
starting to turn
womanhood a step closer

where am I 
in all of this
the need for space

the need for 

spacing
pacing
gentleness

contrapunto 
to so much
growth






Tuesday 11 March 2014

Practicing Forgivenness

I realize 
I must practice
forgiveness

let things rest
let them be
let go

find lightness
through my heavy heart
find that open space

reclaim my essence
the depth of my existence
be who I am 


Being
Stillness
Still Life

Sunday 9 February 2014

The bigger Picture

Call it 

God
Compassion
River


Universe
Mother
Pebble


Love
Buddha
Sharing


Rainbow
Jesus
Light


Shiva
Ashanti
Oak Tree


Mother Mary
Circles
Wisdom


Maitreya
Becoming
World


Krishna
Spirit
Music


 Energy
Divine
Power


 Flow
Messiah
Deity


Isis
St Anne
Parvati


Father
Mountain
Being


Miracle
Grace
Sacred 


Ocean 
Allah
Threshold


Mind
Spirit
Body


Sky
Gaia
Death

  
little speck of dust
 big gesture
Creator


Everything
Temple 
Supreme Being



All in All
Omnipotent
Omniscient 












Tuesday 28 January 2014

Being a Mother to Twins

you initiated me into motherhood
my little Plato and Jupiter
orbiting around each other

Picture chosen by the girls

never far away
fighting for independence
needing each other's embrace

the dainty threads of connection
your different ways of going forward
different yet the same

Yin and Yang
Night and Day
Sky and Earth

you have made my life special 
beyond words
my girls

I feel very honoured 
to be your Mama
to be witness to your journeys

I will forever
treasure
our being together

you have two big 
mother polar bears
protecting you

One for each



Number 9
you have grown
and I can sense 

Integration
Unity
Truth

You are
growing into 
your own

Thank you 
Universe 
for this double gift





Tuesday 14 January 2014

The Bad Mother Archetype

With your beady eyes
your limp hands
your punishing judgement

Leave me alone
go away
don't touch me



I want my mummy
your warm hands
and your alive eyes

hold me 
and cuddle me
and tickle me


you stay away from my son
you go and sort out your house
you go and clear out your rubbish

The Bad Mother Archetype has no place here

Instead I wonder 
can we approach the synthesis of Good and Bad
become ethical in our way of being

Let each other be
not judge
Love