On courage...

one of my girls

she struggled with being kind 

and wanting to say no

at the same time

wanting some space

to be who she wants to be

is that allowed?

tears, and hugs and 

conflicted feelings

a big sigh

my little child

life takes courage

and when the pains outweigh the joys

I give you permission to say

NO

life takes courage indeed

she asked for her initial 

the sparkly big N

encrusted with diamonds

to be put in her pocket

so she may be reminded

of being courageous

my little girl

the journey

of becoming YOU

life takes courage indeed

where is my courage?

when do I hide?
how can I be counted?

walking tall

pushing through

the inner resistance

the truth to be told

to live a life 

as you say and as you feel

deep down in your heart

stepping out 

and standing tall

this is me

Resilience & The River of Forgetfulnesss

YOU want me to do what YOU want

what YOU need

YOU are angry 

silent, whipping anger 

I withstand

I know

I care 

and I know

but I am 

not

giving you

the protection of 

YOUR reality

anymore

because this is YOUR story

the river of forgetfulness

stranded 

in silent suffering and pain

transformed into 

creeping

silent

anger

whipping, slashing, gently, quietly

the wind sweeps through the house

rattling the shutters

flaring curtains

the river of forgetfulness

it is not mine

I let go

I let be

I let the truth

speak 

I am strong

I am not sick

I am

free to expand

Searching for a language of the fragments.....

I have not had enough of sea

not enough of water

not enough of the rushing silence

within

not enough

needing more 

fragments of bones

and twigs

and claws

and carcasses

floating and stranding

on the ancient coast

laid bare on stone

I have not had enough of the sea

not enough of water

not enough of the rushing silence

searching for a language

of these fragments

What can I say?

searching the humming 

of the song

the story

that brings it all together

together 

union maybe

may be