Tiger Spirit

tiger eye gem

embrace your richness

live the world

take courage

have faith

and create

rest in peace Tinu

African Queen

up North

and then 

a walk in the woods

mother asking

you had already come to me

my little tiger

my little playmate

Tiger Spirit

you have been with me

longer than I realised

an innocent gift

of the stuffed tiger

threading the different meanings

strength 

determination

overcoming of fear

the news arrived 

that the tiger had died in the zoo

at the same time as 

the princess of wands 

conquering the fear

opening her arms to creation

burying the tiger

these days

strong emotions

storms of anger

encircling and inhabiting

this house

of harmony

yet I have come full circle

in the fields of parliament

the wish come and gone

the loss in my hands

and in my heart

rivers of tears

yet still 

pointing

towards

courage

determination

creation

Tiger Spirit

be 

my guide 

The Meaning & Symbolism of Motherhood

I have been preoccupied

once more and always

what meaning 

motherhood 

has in my life

How am I being a good mother?

How am I being not so good a mother?

What is it I am giving to my kids?

How do they perceive me?

And then

Out of Nowhere

Another Big Surprise

Another little Bean

Inside

An Easter Birth

to relinquish

The Death

of Mother?

Weeks of 

agonizing

and befriending

making peace

holding

making space

accepting

waiting

The Arch of Awatening or

Awakening?

And then

once more

 shedding

the arrival and departure

of another soul energy

in trickles and rivulets 

of shiny bright red

Blood

Mother I have forgiven you

What now?

Where from here? 

A baby squirrel is saved

a woman is giving birth in the doorway

What is the meaning?

And then 

Great Mother & Baby

go flying

her feet decapitated 

A Pause

A Listening

Perhaps

Life & Love

is what Motherhood is 

The feminine quiver

of Energy

Providing

Nourishing

Supporting

Sacrificing

Mother Earth

Waxing and Waning

Spring 

the beginning of New Life

Giving Birth to

a Child

A new Way of Life

A new Idea

It is back to Creation

The Clouds gone - Mountain appears

Trecking up the mountain

enveloped by the dark

strange noises of 

animals or human?

Embracing each other

in the eye of the storm

the night persisting

will the sun ever come?

The first rays

slashing through the clouds

illuminating thousands of rocks

is it time to pray?

Smells, sounds, sightings

of another world

of another soul

aren't we all woven from the same cloth?

Our love 1 started and was tested 8

in those humid and blazing and high up lands

the foreign world of no point of reference

sealed for a lifetime's commitment?

Yes sealed for a lifetime's commitment

your journey and my journey

alone and together

together and alone

The Buddha sits perched on the slopes

the light plays with the clouds

the mountain stands

Always

And so we shall go on

my friend

our souls

joined in the endeavour of love

Nicholas Roerich

Just because it's beautiful

The beauty of things

settling the noise inside

re-ordering and re-shaping

that which has gone askew

The deep blue

the ivory of love

earthen and from the beyond

cradled by the soft grains of sand

Somewhere out there

there is comfort

there is an order 

that has meaning

And nature

and the world

offers freely

beauty and grace

miraculous growth

despite the harsh conditions

pushing upward 

the order of things

Just because it's beautiful 

that's why I select

the aesthetics of things

lessens my pain

Giving Maggie a new life

Come on Maggie

we are going to the seaside

Can I have an ice cream

yes with sprinkle and all

Come on Maggie

lets have some fun

Taste the taste of life

the crusty bread

the blasting colours

of blooms and fabric

Come on Maggie

the joy of life

every time I bake a new loaf

nourishing depth of flavour

a new lease of life

dancing through glades 

with flowing dresses

cradling rabbit and sitting owl

eyes a pond of possibilities 

giving Maggie a new life

You live on 

bubbling up and fermenting

opening up to the divine presence

that you Maggie revealed

your passing

my coming

Life 

Separation

Oh the nerves

oh my boy

you can do it

I can do it

I know

the playtime will not fade

the boys and the sticks will not fade

your sisters' shouts and bouts 

of ownership - this or that way

will not fade

my arch and bow

of holding and encircling

extends and stretches

always and forever

my boy

in my heart and mind

and the reunion

oh so sweet 

and the laughter

oh such joy

leaping bounds of worlds

Grief stricken

what a funny word

grief stricken

struck by grief?

struck by lightening

and thunder

like a bolt from the sky?

or struck down by

memories

thoughts

emotions

feelings

strikes a chord

on strike

feeling mad and sad

today I guess

not bothered 

not cared for?

the need to be good

to myself

to find the heart

even if pierced

grief stricken

and on strike

waves of washing liquid

breaking my skin

opening wounds

soothing cream

all over again

today

and tomorrow 

another day?