The bigger Picture

Call it 

God

Compassion

River

Universe

Mother

Pebble

Love

Buddha

Sharing

Rainbow

Jesus

Light

Shiva

Ashanti

Oak Tree

Mother Mary

Circles

Wisdom

Maitreya

Becoming

World

Krishna

Spirit

Music

 Energy

Divine

Power

 Flow

Messiah

Deity

Isis

St Anne

Parvati

Father

Mountain

Being

Miracle

Grace

Sacred 

Ocean 

Allah

Threshold

Mind

Spirit

Body

Sky

Gaia

Death

  

little speck of dust

 big gesture

Creator

Everything

Temple 

Supreme Being

All in All

Omnipotent

Omniscient 

Being a Mother to Twins

you initiated me into motherhood

my little Plato and Jupiter

orbiting around each other

Picture chosen by the girls

never far away

fighting for independence

needing each other's embrace

the dainty threads of connection

your different ways of going forward

different yet the same

Yin and Yang

Night and Day

Sky and Earth

you have made my life special 

beyond words

my girls

I feel very honoured 

to be your Mama

to be witness to your journeys

I will forever

treasure

our being together

you have two big 

mother polar bears

protecting you

One for each

Number 9

you have grown

and I can sense 

Integration

Unity

Truth

You are

growing into 

your own

Thank you 

Universe 

for this double gift

The Bad Mother Archetype

With your beady eyes

your limp hands

your punishing judgement

Leave me alone

go away

don't touch me

I want my mummy

your warm hands

and your alive eyes

hold me 

and cuddle me

and tickle me

you stay away from my son

you go and sort out your house

you go and clear out your rubbish

The Bad Mother Archetype has no place here

Instead I wonder 

can we approach the synthesis of Good and Bad

become ethical in our way of being

Let each other be

not judge

Love

Dropping into the Ocean

dropping

into the Ocean

past the surface

inhabiting
the echo place

of tomb-like silence

unaffected by

ripples and storms of fever

hovering

resilience and resonance

holding back

the need to be heard

residing

in the tomb-like silence

waiting for the moment

to pass

to come

to be

dropping

into the Ocean

past the surface

depth

soul

holding place

the promise of peace

and salvation

this is
not easy

dropping into the Ocean

Tiger Spirit

tiger eye gem

embrace your richness

live the world

take courage

have faith

and create

rest in peace Tinu

African Queen

up North

and then 

a walk in the woods

mother asking

you had already come to me

my little tiger

my little playmate

Tiger Spirit

you have been with me

longer than I realised

an innocent gift

of the stuffed tiger

threading the different meanings

strength 

determination

overcoming of fear

the news arrived 

that the tiger had died in the zoo

at the same time as 

the princess of wands 

conquering the fear

opening her arms to creation

burying the tiger

these days

strong emotions

storms of anger

encircling and inhabiting

this house

of harmony

yet I have come full circle

in the fields of parliament

the wish come and gone

the loss in my hands

and in my heart

rivers of tears

yet still 

pointing

towards

courage

determination

creation

Tiger Spirit

be 

my guide 

The Meaning & Symbolism of Motherhood

I have been preoccupied

once more and always

what meaning 

motherhood 

has in my life

How am I being a good mother?

How am I being not so good a mother?

What is it I am giving to my kids?

How do they perceive me?

And then

Out of Nowhere

Another Big Surprise

Another little Bean

Inside

An Easter Birth

to relinquish

The Death

of Mother?

Weeks of 

agonizing

and befriending

making peace

holding

making space

accepting

waiting

The Arch of Awatening or

Awakening?

And then

once more

 shedding

the arrival and departure

of another soul energy

in trickles and rivulets 

of shiny bright red

Blood

Mother I have forgiven you

What now?

Where from here? 

A baby squirrel is saved

a woman is giving birth in the doorway

What is the meaning?

And then 

Great Mother & Baby

go flying

her feet decapitated 

A Pause

A Listening

Perhaps

Life & Love

is what Motherhood is 

The feminine quiver

of Energy

Providing

Nourishing

Supporting

Sacrificing

Mother Earth

Waxing and Waning

Spring 

the beginning of New Life

Giving Birth to

a Child

A new Way of Life

A new Idea

It is back to Creation

The Clouds gone - Mountain appears

Trecking up the mountain

enveloped by the dark

strange noises of 

animals or human?

Embracing each other

in the eye of the storm

the night persisting

will the sun ever come?

The first rays

slashing through the clouds

illuminating thousands of rocks

is it time to pray?

Smells, sounds, sightings

of another world

of another soul

aren't we all woven from the same cloth?

Our love 1 started and was tested 8

in those humid and blazing and high up lands

the foreign world of no point of reference

sealed for a lifetime's commitment?

Yes sealed for a lifetime's commitment

your journey and my journey

alone and together

together and alone

The Buddha sits perched on the slopes

the light plays with the clouds

the mountain stands

Always

And so we shall go on

my friend

our souls

joined in the endeavour of love

Nicholas Roerich